My dreams are so vivid and I haven’t taken melatonin for the past six months. A year ago I was restless and dreamless. Someone suggested taking melatonin, but my dreams started to feel real after taking it for so long. The line between dreams and reality became seamless so I stopped taking it. Even though I haven’t taken it for so long the dreams still feel real. Last night I had a dream that, if interpreted, symbolized my mixed emotions towards some people. That I should give in to these emotions and speak what’s really on my mind. I slept, dreamt and woke up not wanting to experience that dream. I slept again, dreamt and realized that this next dream was a continuation of the previous and woke up again. I attempted to stop the dream from continuing a third time by staying awake for about ten minutes. I started to think about things that had no relation to what my dream was about. I went to sleep again, dreamt and the dream continued. At that point I just let it be, but these are not the kind of dreams I want right now. Every time this happens I wake up thinking if I should look in my pool of untold words and start speaking what’s really on my mind. I know that if I do it would cause complete chaos for some people, but complete serenity for me. “Do what makes you happy.” “Do you what makes you happy (with the consideration of others).” I don’t know what to do. I don’t know if these words should remain in the pool. I’ll never know. Is it now or never?
Many people look at their past, pick out a timeframe and call it bullshit. I’ve done this so many times since the day I left home and joined the Army. The majority of those timeframes involved a female too. I’m so bitter towards them now. Females are vicious. Very vicious creatures. I always say this.
Constantly comparing your current with your last shows that you’re not completely over your last. As the days go on, your last should matter less and less. Find yourself in this situation and you may need to re-evaluate what you have.
Inactivity has its ways of getting through the minds of wandering counterparts. Counterparts constantly seek activity and the absence of it makes life seem more complex than it really is. At that point you’ve lost the battle and there is no winning the war after that… unless you can find a way to reverse this process.
I’ve been out of Korea for about 2 weeks now. Looking back at pictures of my adventures in that country makes me miss it more and more every day. I miss the friends I’ve made, the chill times on and off post, the delicious food that was oh so cheap, the crazy nights, the drinking, the partying, the exploring, etc. I could go on and on about my adventures in Korea. This was one of the first pictures I took in Korea after I got my Nikon D7000. Feels like it was just yesterday that I was walking across this bridge taking this picture thinking to myself, “Korea is fucking legit.” I count the days until I’m back on that penn.
That power… Anything is possible in the b-boy community. There’s always one b-boy that proves all of us wrong when we think a move is impossible.
Whenever I watch TV shows I get sucked in and it becomes my life. Workaholics… this show is VERY tight butthole. Season 3 seems a little off with the humor though. I hope it comes back in latter episodes. Eh, I’m sure it will. They’re too real. Ha.
I’m on it with Korean music. Verbal Jint - You Look Good